When God closes a door is another one opened? Today, I attended a mandatory company meeting, where I learned we’re being let go by the beginning of next year. Possibly sooner.
As I write this I have so many emotions going through me. One second I want to cry. The next second I want to scream “praise you Jesus” and literally the second after that I want to worry.
It is so hard being a human sometimes.
The crazy thing is every since I took the job, that I am being laid off from, I have missed church every single Sunday because I always work. This job has a been a blessing in so many ways.
Before I got this job I was on State Health Insurance and I fed my children with benefits I got from a Link Card every month.
Actually, I was able to get off State Aid and Link with my previous job but was able to stay off of it with this job.
When God Closes A Door Expectantly
I don’t know about you but I don’t believe in consequences. In fact I believe with all my heart everything happens for a reason. Sometimes we may never know what those reasons are and other times we may.
The crazy thing is I am getting what I asked for.
No, I didn’t ask to be laid off by any means. However, I did ask God to help me go Full-Time with this blog.
Going Full-Time with this blog would allow me to share the gospel through my writing which I love to do. It would also allow me to return to church which I desperately miss and need.
Therefore it is hard not to feel so many emotions one right after another. Is it God? Is it not God? What do I do next?
God Opens Doors At The Right Time
If I were getting this exact news a couple years ago I would probably be in full panic attack mode before I even left the meeting. I’m not gonna lie I was teary eyed a time or two in the meeting but I was able to hold it together.
All I could think was…
God has this.
There is a reason for this.
It’s time I get serious.
My back is up against the wall now.
I have to make this work.
Why is it we tend to trust God when things take a turn? Somehow we always forget about Him or put Him on the back burner when things are good.
I will be the first to admit I am not a good Christian. I suck at it and I fail daily. Sometimes hourly. I don’t pray when I should and probably pray when I shouldn’t.
I do however tend to learn from my failures and mistakes. Like this season of my life. I am learning that I must trust God with all my heart. Even though I can’t see the end of the road or even the beginning.
I don’t know if my last day at work will be next month or the beginning of next year. What I do know is I am committed to having unwavering faith and I will put in extraordinary effort every day from here on out.
No matter how hard things get or what obstacles come my way. I will go Full-Time with this Blog and I will be back in church praising my Lord and serving others.
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